Friday, April 25, 2008

I have an idea


I swear, I come up with an idea everyday. everyday. that's pretty good. I just need a team of people to follow through with me. I guess that's what wealthy people have. so you don't need to do much, just come up with an idea. just do it. that's right. I said it.
what happens to people as they get older? rigid. like so protected. friends go away. i guess that's the luxury of a free society. right, we have the freedom to be vapid. I guess that's where organized religion comes into play. I mean, how much can one talk about liking a band or a movie? it's like, grow the fuck up. remember 2 weeks ago when we got a barrister? oh brother.

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

april 23


doesn't that sound magical? april 23. it would be a pretty name for a girl. agree or disagree? god. i got so moody today. I got out of it, finally. I don't know what's wrong with me. I want to be joyfull. everything is going my way.

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

olympic and bundy


these are going to start looking like depression times. I have to document this somehow. be a part of the melt down. does this sound negative? it's not. really, I am

feeling really hopeful about things.

Monday, April 21, 2008

I am going through old pictures and making them look older

this was from dec of 06 i think. century city. I had a nice day. how about you?
George, whats happening in NZ? la isn't the same with out you. though I am sure that you are better off.

Sunday, April 20, 2008

oh gosh


man! I

had a good weekend, but it feels like a lost weekend. 3 weekends ago I was sick. last weekend, thought I had pinkeye. this week I fell and got my period. so I mean...what is going on? I am happy. I think that I ned more substance in my life. my I will start going to temple or something. there's only so much to shop for.

in a month or so, i turn 40. 40!!!!!! oh god. I am excited. 40 is a big deal in my family. seems like a curse. grandma killed herself. dad's life ruptured. paul's life raptured. So did Steve's. so I am next at bat. it's not like I think things are going to fall apart, but maybe change is inevitable. I feel good.

how do people sustain hope. I hate writing stuff like that, because I think people think that I am hopeless. but I am not. hopeful that we are to end. as people. as one.

I hope that in my life, that we all pull it together.

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