Thursday, January 03, 2008


things are going much better today. I was so reactive yesterday and today I upped the dosage on the happy pills and voila. I am so much less reactive. that hurts me more than it hurts you.

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

laughing and crying at the same time

knock! knock! hello. I am glad to be here. I am getting older every day. can you dig it? can you? listen, my peeps, I am trying here. the truth is, I am not trying at all. I am just stuck in the frigging figuring. figure that. it makes no sense. here's my warning for you. you are getting older too. the weird thing is that we get older and maybe wiser, but not better. I don't think so. we are preserved and hormoned, but we are living too long. went do I fucking lighten up? I ask you. I mean, I go back to work and this should be the shit. it is the shit. I am in the shit while being the shit. TS! give me a call. are you back yet? Jbo, let's are you good? I hope that you are. let's get together soon.

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

the new year

hi! miss me? checking my guest stats, I doubt it. that's ok though, I can be honest. I can be bold and not shy. I go back to work tomorrow. it's been a good ride. how do I feel? I feel good. I feel fine. I was starting to get a little stir crazy. bored and lonely. the first 2 months were great. the last 2 were good. I regret none of it. I miss you though. I miss our talks and the long line of bs. remember how we checked out the movies and listen to the songs? do you remember it all. can you hear me? hey you!

Sunday, December 30, 2007

are we there yet?

it's the end of the year, dear reader. are we where we thought we would be or at least headed in that direction? are we fragmented? are we loved? do we love? are we alone? which parts matter and which parts don't? the news or sunshine? our hands our occupied, but are our minds and hearts? is mine? I love and yet what I feel never feels enough. I think that I am lacking spirituality.
at any rate, let's check back in soon. don't go too far.

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